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Can’t Even Drown My Sorrows in Ice Cream Anymore

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7 Mar 2016
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I don’t usually get super personal here. I like to keep it colorful, crafty, and full of vinyl and paint and washi tape. I also don’t usually say “hey, sorry I’ve been super busy and haven’t been posting as much.” But this time I’m sharing.

I had gestational diabetes during my last pregnancy, about 8 years ago. I always knew that put me at risk for developing full blown diabetes later. I just always thought it would happen much later. Or maybe I’d be lucky. But it’s caught up with me now, or finally presented itself anyway.


I still don’t know if it’s type 2 (where I have insulin but it’s just not working well.) If that’s the case, the Metformin I’ve been taking for 4 days, which makes me tired and queasy so far, will start to help. 

The other possibility is an autoimmune variety where my body is attacking any insulin that I do make. I’m still waiting on results of an antibody test. In that case, Metformin won’t help me and I’ll have to do insulin shots instead, giving my body what it needs to move glucose from my blood into my cells so it can be used as energy. (Probably explains why I’ve felt more tired than normal lately–too much glucose in my blood and not being turned into energy.)

I realize that this is not the worst thing that could happen. It will be manageable, it’s not going to kill me, and there are plenty of other health issues that would be harder to deal with.

But it still sucks. I’ve still cried. I’ve cried at home, and at church, and driving the in the car, and at the grocery store. And I’ve even cried in front of my kids, which I really didn’t want to do because I don’t want to scare them.


I look at food and feel like everything is poison. I know I have to eat, to help keep my blood sugar levels relatively even–but anything I want to eat could make it spike. It’s a very strange feeling, and one that I hope goes away soon.

I’m going to miss my treats. It’s going to take a lot of time, especially at first, figuring out what I can eat, when I have to eat it, what I have to eat it with, and what I have to give up for the day, or forever. But my husband has been awesome, and has already taken over dinners for the last month. He works from home, so there’s no commute time, and it just takes away that one stress for me while I’m focusing on school.

Kiki & Co

So, here I am, trying to figure out how this new part of my life fits in with everything else in my life. It will include a lot of faith and prayer. I may write a follow up post, when I know more details about what long term management is going to look like. But until then, thanks for reading. And have some Cadbury Mini Eggs for me, ok? 🙂

Here’s my update post.


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  1. TheKimSix Fix says

    March 7, 2016 at 8:53 pm

    Oh my gosh.. Stephanie. I'm so sorry. I had GD too and I constantly worry about this happening, so I understand how much of a big deal it is to you. I had to use insulin during my pregnancy.. and it wasn't horrible. (I mean, sure it would be better to not have to.. but in the big scheme of things.. It beats feeling crappy…) I was such a sugar addict and so I totally understand the feeling that food is the enemy. I tried to get proactive and started a "diabetic friendly" Pinterest recipe board and made my blog sugar journal cute with stickers and stuff.. but it was still really hard. I hope soon you can find a new normal. Sending tons of (hugs) and sympathy!

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  2. Valerie Earnest says

    March 7, 2016 at 9:12 pm

    so sorry you have to deal with this! I am not diabetic but was diagnosed ten years ago with an auto immune disease that basically changed my whole life. It's so hard to make those big changes and to mourn the "old life" you had. I hope you get the answers you need quickly and start feeling better soon. Sending you a virtual hug!

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  3. Krafthead says

    March 8, 2016 at 11:34 am

    I am so sorry this about this news. I too had GD with my children and because I am overweight (usually don't share that) I am more at risk. It also runs in my family. One thing I discovered that helps with the sugar spikes is apple cider vinegar. Also walking is a great way to help with this. Take care!

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  4. Michelle Paige says

    March 8, 2016 at 2:42 pm

    Oh wow, Stephanie! I can only imagine how difficult and scary this might be. I'm so sorry. I love how positive you are, counting your blessings (husband cooking meals) in the midst of this ongoing struggle. May your doctors find answers for you and may you feel better, soon. Love to you.

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  5. Danielle Reeves says

    March 11, 2016 at 2:08 pm

    I'm so sorry for this trial, hun. Sending prayers and hugs your way!

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